Going to the company, makes me feel so little... so brainless.. so helpless.. and maybe STUPID!!! isn't it TERRIBLE??? yesss.. i seriously think is terrible...
ok... wat've I been doing for the last few days .. last wk, wat've i done ??? hmm... i went to NTU library on wed.. borrowed four books... (and i've read through 3 books briefly), bought 2 books written by David Baldacci. One of them, Hour Game, is fanatastic... it was 500 plus pages if i remembered correctly, nice plot! Very exciting!! Who was the killer??
Second book is Camel Club.. which i haven't really started..
I hope it'll be as even better than Hour Game. Initially i din see any books to my liking in Kino, but there was this Chinese book on the shelf that attracted me. Yesss.. it was the chinese version of Hour Game. I din wish to go thr an ordeal of reading chinese books, so i looked for the english version instead. I guess an english that can be translated into chinese version, shouldn't be that bad after all. It PROVES me right!!!! (^-^)\/
This week, I went to the company for 3 continously days.. it was juz bad. I told rossy that my results weren't improving but remaining the same. I wanted to scream in there but I CANNOT!! The feeling of lost, helpless, stupid juz added up to be many many times worse off. If i can do it in school, i believe it might be better off. Maybe my eggy can company me in the lab while i'm simulating the thing.
Tell me... how the hell am I going to get 6GHz as my center frequency???
I really want to proceed on. I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but why am I lying to myself that "I can do it"???? Damn it ... I'm giving second thoughts many things around me.
Am I feeling moody??? Yess... i'm feeling moody... next wk will be the Christmas.
Isn't days passing fast until I dun see it but i can feel it???
Pics will come soon... i'm too lazy to upload it into my lappy.. i think eggy is laughing away now.
bye.. enough of complaining... one more day to suffer before the weekends arrive.
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